What shaped me... and my life... what makes me the way i am...

Why?

How did i turn out to be the way i am now?

I believe that what i am now, is the direct opposite of my dad, and some remnants of him in my personality that i could not erase...

My father is loud. I am soft spoken.
My father is petty. I am generous (mostly).
My father is well, kanchong... i'm.. mostly emotionless, though i try Not to be kanchong.

Some things i inherited from being in this family are well,

I'm honest... i can't tell lies... i'll get really worried and everything.
I do the right things..(more with being a personal motto), and i'm a nice guy most of the time.

Now, some things i don't know who's influence is leaning on, is why i allow myself to be rejected so many times, and get hurt so much. Why i lack self-confidence so much, and have low self-esteem at times. (Nice guys finish last, maybe that's why?)

Could it be the things i've seen? The things i've read? The events that shaped my life? The people in my life who changed me?

Could be one of the above, could be all of it.

But all these has added up to make me the person i am today. Love it or hate it, i'm Peng Jianxiong Aaron, and you're stuck with me for a friend(if you treat me as one).