17th - 18th July 2007.

17th July 2007 - Tuesday -

Today i explored the possibilities of quitting this job in my head.
And why not? I don't talk to anyone much here other than my boss and barry, and i don't feel i'm doing a good job at what i'm doing.

Granted, this job asks me to look at details and specifics, which i'm not good at since i usually look at the picture on the whole, but sometimes i feel like i'm just playing at working.

Everyday i wake up feeling like i didn't sleep much. Every evening when i leave for home i feel immensely tired. Yet the amount of work i do doesn't justify that. I don't know why i feel this way.

To say i'm happy here would be quite an understatement. I told Barry that perhaps i'm not used to this job, because i've always worked in service lines before, or other than that, jobs which allows me to talk to other people, or with friends.

Here the only time i talk is when i ask for something, or everything work-wise. Not to mention lunch time when i catch up with Barry a bit.

I was contemplating this of course, when i met Dennis at the hallway. He was waiting for someone to show, and we ended up having a short conversation. He admitted that while the pay was low, the intangibles more than made up for that couple of hundreds. Like a good boss, relatively good working environment, etc.

I thought about it a little, and then went back to work. Well it is true, i'm not stressed out here at all, and that's a good thing. Truth be told, i think i did much more work last year in the Medical Centre daily.. here i do less than half of what i did, even though the monetary effect and responsibilities are so much higher.

Went home, got some pics from quan, then read and went to sleep at 10pm. Just didn't feel like doing anything.

18th July 2007 - Wed - Boss Mc -

Despite having close to 9 1/2 hours of sleep. I still woke up feeling like crap. This has got to stop somehow. Strangely enough, after i showered and came here, i didn't feel that bad.

Met up with Dennis at the bus stop, he happened to be on 66, the bus behind me, and we went to the counter to get a copy of Today. I didn't know there were free papers everyday. Now i do though heh.

Was about to go into my office when i heard from Ryan that boss is on MC.

Truth be told, the whole office has been quiet til now. Except for a couple of phone calls and some people calling in..

I've been reading alot... on WP, on SGF, on stuff in general. Been thinking a bit too. Like what i want to do in the future..

Strange how it seems so different when i'm out of NS.

I think the greatest difference between me now and back then in NS was the fact that i now know more about politics. Not a hell lot more, but i've been reading up and yes, i dare say i know more about politics now.

Haha, back then i wanted to be a minister, cause they were drawing high salaries. I just didn't know that from 1994 they were drawing 1+ million a month, and just recently 2+ million a month. Yeap, a MP is making $183,333.33 a month, or just $6,111.11 a day.

I know i'm never be a politician. I know too little about politics, and my character is just too nice. I'll be trampled everywhere among other stuff.

But i know that its getting harder to live, and the thought of moving elsewhere to work is surely getting in my head. Maybe i could use this time before i start studying to enrich myself, like studying Canto if i really want to work in HK or even Taiwan.

Ah well. Sometimes i think i really think too much. No?
Gotta focus on my goals... still want to write a story!

Later then~