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I've removed that entry.

I think those who i want them to see it has already done so...
The rest doesn't matter.

Anyways, i guess i'm still doing okay, still burned out though, since now i have to do my stuff And also teach someone under me. Yawns.

At least its tuesday already..

Weekend - Nov 17 - 19

Friday evening saw me joining budee, choi, quan and qs at Jp. Supposed to watch Happy feet, but ended up the show wasn't out yet. Beh.

So after dinner at macs, we went over to clementi and decided to play pool.
Played for 2 hours, and surprisingly i won 4 out of 6 matches. Was quite 'on the ball', but after everything i felt really tired. I guess this took more concentration then i usually have.

Had some crayfish vermicilli before heading for home in Qs's car.

Sat evening was spent with jiaxing and gf, eugene, melvin, willy, gavin and some others at vivocity. We watched Casino Royale, which i find kinda.. sucky. Its just not my type of show ba.

The company was enjoyable, and i updated some of them on my current status now.

Reached home and played ff12 til about 6.

Woke up at 2+, and carried on playing until somewhere in the evening, where i had dinner at home. The weather's been pretty weird, what with the sudden downpour, stop, sudden downpour, stop, and the cycle continues..

I decided to meet Jeffrey for some chocolates, basically just to slack.
Talked a bit, ate a bit, and now i'm back home..

Work tomorrow.. phew. I guess i'm really not looking forward to it. Hah..

To add on

There are supposed to be a few coming trips to taiwan next year, that i really want to go. I believe it could be one of the reasons i'm working so hard. But i most probably won't be able to go anyways, cause there's no one to cover me. So says the sgt who Knows i'm working hard.

So what's the point of working so hard, even though i'm getting $520 like the others?

I seriously don't see the point.
Do you?

Recent updates

I'm going through a bad patch lately, and i think its all because i tend to keep stuff to myself.
Perhaps if i had opened up earlier this wouldn't have happened.

One thing i learnt. If you don't open up, no one would know what is happening to you, even though its so goddamn obvious.

Until you say the words, "help me", nothing will come out of it.

Especially in the SAF.

To Chiman

Know that you will always be my dearest Chiman Jie,
Know that you are the one i will always listen to,
Know that everytime you cry, i'm crying deep inside too.

I don't know why God has caused so much pain and suffering on your side,
I don't know why you had to go through so much more than others have,
I don't know why all these had to happen to you.

I've said this before and i'll say them to you again.
I will always be there, always be ready to share if only a bit of your burden.
And i'm only a phonecall away.

I do not believe bad things can happen to good people all the time,
and i believe, it will soon be over.

It is always darkest before dawn, and know that when all seems dark,
That is when you'll see the lights that has been shining beside you all the while.

Be strong, sleep well, and eat well.
You think and worry too much, and that's causing you alot of un-necessary stress...
I'm really hoping that your art teacher will help you out of this.

Take care, we'll always be rooting for you~

I had to eat my breakfast... 3 times.

Why?

First time i had to wait for my friends to finish up first, before i got interrupted to do something as arrowed by my highly respected newly promoted 2sg.

It was then Chiman called, and i told her this is the busiest moment of my life. In retrospect, it isn't of course, but you know sometimes genes come true. (My fathers' side has this "kan cheong" syndrome, i swear i've inherited it) Sorry for not being able to pick up your call then..~

After going back to it another time, the doctor asked me out in a phone call to do something...
That anyone can do.

its weird, nowadays i keep arrowed to do things that.. anyone can do.

And then of course, when they want to do something i can do, who do they ask?
Me lor.

So yea, why am i so busy nowadays? =_=

Reflections

The past week has been busy... loads of things has happened, but i'm just not in the mood to type it out.

I'm really tired of living life the way i am doing it now... or was it just this monday morning that i feel so out of it... so sian.

I guess its normal, after all i've been doing this work for 11 months. A year of it liao... 7 more months to go...

11 months of pretty much the same thing. How much can one person stand?

Truth is i'm feeling a bit lonely, when will i be able to hold the next girl and say she's my own?
When will i be able to hold her hand, and hug her?

And when will i finally do something about it? Or will i still rely on Fate/Destiny?
When will it finally happen?

Ahhhhhh..~